Okay why the hell is it that I am cursed? Hell I just started to have a really great day. I was able to get my books today though it was only after the Den said that I could charge them till finatual aid came in. YAY got books, my alergies aren't to bad to day, I get a vacume that really works *la gasp* get to se my boy, talk with my friends a good day. The nI open my mail that I got in yesterday and got today....this morning really and low and behold a crash and the curse striks again. I have a anouther med bill. I have four bills from them FOUR!!! one X-ray bill that was not that bad, then I get two more at once, one for the doctor reading it, Just reading it!! that was $354!, then just sitting in the ER it was $935. All they did was take my temp, blood prussure, and give me a splint. Thats it. Oh a peice of paper and a pen OH MY GOD it has to be the pen yeah that what cost so much. HELL! now I get anouther one from the hospital its self for anouther $352.80! I called them up and asked what its for. yeah thats just for them...For what sitting on a bed for a hole 5 minutes? the rest of the time O was eather sitting in a wheel chair or staning on one leg. I do not see where they have the right to charge so much bloody money. On rough estiments thats over $1,600. I dont have a job and like normal I am borderline homeless and a college student. I mean hell how am I going to pay for this? Rent is $400 and I have other bill too. I haven't been able to work because of my leg. I had one interveiw 2 weeks ago and found out that I didn't get the job. I was the most quolifide acording to one of my friends that know all the rules and regs for the job pasition. They even went agest their own pollocy whe nthey did not hire me. I have aps here at the college but the Cafe here isn't hiring at the time being. Hell thats paying 9.40 an hour. Just working ten hours a week would pay for rent at the end of the mounth. Right know I really dont know what to do. I feel so overwelmed that I could scream. I cant just stop take classes because god kows when I could start agian. I also cant move out because I have no where else to go and there is no where cheaper. I know for I have been looking. The state wont even give me food stamps to buy food or health insurance through oregon plues. I have a whole two dallors in my bank account and thats it. I cant do much. I still cant walk far anly from my place to school thats about 3/4 of a mile. Hell I dont even have a car to live out of. I have jack. Right know the only thing keeping me going is knowing that if I tell my boy that he will worry, and I cant have that he has to meny tests coming up to have distractions. I know that BG when you read this will worry please dont you too V and GF. I will do something. I dont know what yet. This is just a really messed up situation. Why cant they make health care reasonalble. it should be afordable not every one is made of money. *laughs* Told mom that I didn't need an xray. Though knowing my luck I would have broken it and not know cause I didn't get one. Why does this always have to happen to me. its not fair. Though who ever said that life was fair. *giggle* I can hear my mom's ex-husbans mother saying "know where you can find sinthipy? between sh17 and siphlis in the dictionary." I think that right know I deserve a little selfpitty.
Frustrated beyond hell,
Goddes of Wolves